reflections.



My 22 year old ponderances-posts consisting of things that appeal to my eyes, ears, and mind.


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dislike.

I don’t like feeling this way. There’s so much more going on in the world that I feel guilty when I am in this state. Especially knowing how blessed and fortunate I am. But, its not an emotion. Its an environment of negativity and the need to distance myself from everyone. I can’t just ‘get over’ it or ‘be happy’. Nobody understands and its so difficult at times to explain how this isn’t something I can control. Its so overpowering sometimes I feel like I’m literally trying to break out of my own body but it won’t let me. I’m a prisoner in my own mind. I don’t like asking for help but its getting to a point where I can’t do this on my own anymore. Its starting to effect me in ways I never imagined. I don’t know what to do but just sleep hoping when I wake up I will feel different. I wish I had specific reasons, reasons people could understand. I just don’t know.

0 notes / Monday, January 30, 2012 / 9:52 pm

0 notes / Monday, January 30, 2012 / 9:43 pm

Secret dream job: tattooer. 

Secret dream job: tattooer. 

0 notes / Thursday, January 19, 2012 / 12:43 am

This is how I feel lately: blurry, confused, dazed, black and white, and not in control. And I don’t know how to get rid of these feelings.

This is how I feel lately: blurry, confused, dazed, black and white, and not in control. And I don’t know how to get rid of these feelings.

0 notes / Monday, January 16, 2012 / 5:09 pm

love.

love.

759 notes / Friday, January 13, 2012 / 10:35 pm

People are starting to finally see what I’ve seen since Inception. But the breaking point where I really started crushing is when I saw his tattoos and how muscular the man can get and go back to normal so quickly. I’m officially obsessed. I just want the rest of the world to back off.

People are starting to finally see what I’ve seen since Inception. But the breaking point where I really started crushing is when I saw his tattoos and how muscular the man can get and go back to normal so quickly. I’m officially obsessed. I just want the rest of the world to back off.

0 notes / Monday, January 09, 2012 / 9:48 pm

I was skeptical at first when they chose to cast her in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo but she was amazing!! I now have an official girl crush on her.

I was skeptical at first when they chose to cast her in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo but she was amazing!! I now have an official girl crush on her.

1 notes / Thursday, January 05, 2012 / 8:54 pm

trying.

I am really trying. I have let go of being bitter but sometimes anger just comes so naturally. Its easy to get mad. I feel like I am owed so much, of all the things I missed out on. I’m 22 and I still find myself acting like a child crying over the presents I didn’t get. I find myself thinking why am I reacting this way? But, its so hard. School doesn’t teach you to deal with certain situations like this they teach you how to add and your abc’s and some social interactions. Even watching movies and television shows doesn’t help. How do you deal with brokenness when you’re supposed to be a grown adult? I guess every moment and every day will be a battle between myself. I’m trying.

0 notes / Thursday, January 05, 2012 / 4:40 pm

I really miss looking out of my window each night to see this beautiful skyline. I miss it so much that tears come to my eyes and my heart hurts.

I really miss looking out of my window each night to see this beautiful skyline. I miss it so much that tears come to my eyes and my heart hurts.

0 notes / Thursday, December 15, 2011 / 6:11 am

HAHA hilarious.

21976 notes / Thursday, November 24, 2011 / 12:37 am

fuckyeahtattoos:

My second tattoo and most meaningful piece I currently have..“I live for you because you died for me”Just a simple but powerful motto I live by. Done at Golden Monkey Tattoo, in Fredericksburg, VA, by Mike Tschirn. 

This is probably the most meaningful tattoo I’ve ever seen on tumblr.

fuckyeahtattoos:

My second tattoo and most meaningful piece I currently have..
“I live for you because you died for me”
Just a simple but powerful motto I live by. 
Done at Golden Monkey Tattoo, in Fredericksburg, VA, by Mike Tschirn. 

This is probably the most meaningful tattoo I’ve ever seen on tumblr.

3485 notes / Thursday, November 24, 2011 / 12:32 am

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Ron Pope - A Drop in the Ocean

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634 notes / Tuesday, November 22, 2011 / 11:26 pm

:] 

:] 

382 notes / Monday, November 21, 2011 / 8:49 pm

I miss you so much tiny one.

I miss you so much tiny one.

1 notes / Tuesday, November 15, 2011 / 10:39 pm