February 2012
5 posts
holidays.
I understand Valentine’s Day isn’t technically a holiday but a business idea that makes millions each year. I don’t hate Valentine’s Day. I actually love the idea that its supposed to be, which is to show the people in your life that they are special no matter whether if they are a significant other, parent, or friend. But, what I hate is what its become, a platform to brag...
January 2012
8 posts
dislike.
I don’t like feeling this way. There’s so much more going on in the world that I feel guilty when I am in this state. Especially knowing how blessed and fortunate I am. But, its not an emotion. Its an environment of negativity and the need to distance myself from everyone. I can’t just ‘get over’ it or ‘be happy’. Nobody understands and its so difficult at...
trying.
I am really trying. I have let go of being bitter but sometimes anger just comes so naturally. Its easy to get mad. I feel like I am owed so much, of all the things I missed out on. I’m 22 and I still find myself acting like a child crying over the presents I didn’t get. I find myself thinking why am I reacting this way? But, its so hard. School doesn’t teach you to deal with...
December 2011
1 post
November 2011
11 posts
Ron Pope - A Drop in the Ocean
truth
Sometimes the only thing people can go on is what you tell them. And its usually a very biased one sided version of the truth. I think I finally get the saying there is her side, his side, and the truth. Always look for the truth never the side.
happiness.
I recently had my heart broken. Its been breaking since I went to Korea. It came at me like a train or a ton of bricks. Like most people I would say I had the perfect childhood. Family was the most important thing I valued in my life. It was my family that gave me the most amazing memories. It was those memories I hold on to when I need to go to my happy place. And its those memories now that I...
September 2011
1 post
neglect.
Dear Tumblr,
I’m sorry I have been neglecting you. But, I don’t have internet so it makes it extremely hard to spend countless hours looking through posts. I also am trying very hard to be less anti-social and to do well in school. Which means less time spent with you. Until then, its been great.
-Me.
August 2011
17 posts
amazing.
I’m not the type of person who expects God to show up in every situation. I don’t go around thinking God will bless this conversation or this circumstance. But, lately he has shown me he has no bounds. You can’t put God in a box because he’ll just show you he has no limits.
My family wasn’t always Christian. They have all recently found salvation and are starting to...
apology.
To the people I care about now and in the future:
I apologize in advance if I seemed intimidating or unapproachable when we met. I apologize for not being an open book and extremely hard to read. I apologize if I seem like I’m not listening or I don’t care. I may have zoned out but I always try to refocus. I apologize for my abrupt facial expressions, sometimes the reaction on my face...
Keyshia Cole ft. Monica - Trust. I love her...
goals.
My goals for this year:
-Reserve time for God. -Stop being so lazy in all aspects of my life: school, social, work, etc. -To attend more than 1 basketball game. -Get involved in at least one extracurricular. -Find some volunteer work. -Make a new friend. -Be a little more friendly towards people. -Do something out of my comfort zone. -Explore Richmond. -Actively keep in touch with those I always...
fighting.
My arms and hands are getting tired from wielding a sword so big. Sweat beads dripping down my face with my hair flaring everywhere. Its so quiet I can hear myself breathe. Exhaustion slowly creeping up and telling my body to just stop trying. There’s no giving up because burning for eternity is not an option. But its getting so difficult to try with so many obstacles in the way. All the...
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secrets.
I secretly wish:
-I was a vampire. Not like the ones in Twilight, those are wack. Either like the ones in Blade or Underworld. I grew up loving vampires because of an old movie called Interview with the Vampire. They’re supposed to be badass and they don’t sparkle in the sun.
-I could be one of those girls who could put their relationship on blast on Facebook. Like plastering...
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I wish I had read this before college →
excuse-my-charisma:
Dear Class of 2011, As you begin your college experience, and I prepare for my 10-year college reunion, I thought I’d leave you with the things that, in retrospect, I think are important as you navigate the next four years. I hope that some of them are helpful. Here goes…
Your friends will change a lot over the next four years. Let them.
Call someone you love back home a...
korea.
Everyone seems to be asking me the same question: “Have you done anything exciting yet?” My answer is no. I have been to Korea about 18 times. I am 21 you figure out how much that is over the course of my life up until now. Simply, ITS A LOT! The country is small there is not that many places to go and to see. I have done everything imaginable. I’ve gone to all the big amusement...
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random thoughts.
My random thoughts and ranting:
-I don’t understand how people can be so rude? Would it kill you to say ‘excuse me’ before shoving me out of your way? Is where you are going so important you have to trample me down? I just don’t understand. I literally got shoved to the wall by a middle school boy and was about to go off on him for one even touching me because I hate being...
July 2011
15 posts
dream.
I hate when a dream is so real and vivid you wake up thinking ‘am I dreaming now?’ I think I had one of the best dreams I’ve ever had in a really long time. I woke up literally with a smile on my face. I can’t tell the details of my dream because I am secretely hoping it will actually happen. Sigh. A dream is a wish your heart makes…la di da…when you’re...
learning.
I’ve only been in Korea for less than day and I’m already learning a lot about myself:
-I can never have a job where I am traveling all the time. Airplanes are no fun past 4 hours. And going through security is not fun either. I just could not do it for other than vacation purposes.
-I love my grandma. She is seriously hilarious. Growing up I always thought she was so strict and...
session one.
I’m doing a new devotional about pursuing spiritual transformation. Honestly, when I saw the title I thought this might be a little too much for me. But, after reading and digesting session one it isn’t as scary.
I’ve learned that being “spiritual” does not mean being a perfect little Christian. All the external stuff isn’t relevant. Its about embracing that...
you should know...
Just because I don’t open up right away doesn’t make me cold.
Just because I’m blunt or real doesn’t make me a bitch.
Just because I smile a lot doesn’t mean I’m okay.
Just because I dress nice doesn’t make me spoiled.
Just because I drink and like to have a good time doesn’t make me less of a Christian.
Just because I don’t tell you my...
