reflections.

Not a huge fan of Rihanna but the song is legit.

Sun, 12 May 2013 22:13:38 -0400

Not a huge fan of Rihanna but the song is legit.

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Sun, 12 May 2013 22:05:33 -0400

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own...

Sun, 12 May 2013 22:01:09 -0400

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.

Proverbs 3:5-6

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Fri, 15 Mar 2013 21:56:31 -0400

And he does it again. Genius.

Thu, 14 Mar 2013 22:57:03 -0400

And he does it again. Genius.

Gotta remind myself this everyday.

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 20:15:21 -0400

Gotta remind myself this everyday.

I really need to do this.

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 13:08:38 -0400

I really need to do this.

Yes.

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 18:10:09 -0400

Yes.

Need.

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 23:25:25 -0400

Need.

Oh, really?

Mon, 11 Mar 2013 23:22:25 -0400

Oh, really?

my two cents.

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 22:04:05 -0500

I may not have children or know what it’s like to be a parent. But what I do know is basic humanity, compassion, and love. Everyone deserves to be loved and cared for especially by their parents. Even though most may not plan their children there is 9 months of preparing and wrapping your head around the idea that a beautiful child is coming. And that child deserves to be raised by the people who brought them into this world because they certainly didn’t create themselves. This might be presumptuous but I truly believe that if you believe you’re responsible enough to have sex then be responsible enough to raise your child. Because no matter what your intentions are and how good they may be you are putting a permanent hole inside their heart by abandoning them.

I’m on my way…

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 23:49:31 -0500

I’m on my way…

Officially my favorite song right now.

Mon, 24 Dec 2012 22:30:26 -0500

Officially my favorite song right now.

enemy.

Sun, 26 Aug 2012 22:32:18 -0400

Its funny how I am by far my own worst enemy. I have a lot of different sides to me and somehow or another one comes and bites me in the butt. My sensitive side will lead me down paths filled with raw emotions that drive my logical and reasonable side crazy. Sometimes I really don’t know which one to listen to and follow. I wish decisions were so much easier to make than having to constantly battle with myself and always suffer repercussions. I will rarely come out of a choice without any harm or regrets, always wondering if I followed the right side whether it be my head or my heart. I wish I knew which side to listen to more, it’d make life a little bit easier. I’m becoming more and more exhausted by my anger, frustration, and confusion towards myself. Sometimes I wish I could blame it on someone other than me.

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Mon, 20 Aug 2012 10:19:08 -0400

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Wed, 25 Jul 2012 00:18:10 -0400

truth.

Tue, 24 Jul 2012 14:44:09 -0400

truth.

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 20:55:26 -0400

truth.

forgiveness.

Sun, 15 Jul 2012 01:39:54 -0400

Why is it so incredibly difficult to forgive? The initial anger, hurt, and bitterness is gone but those after effects, those lingering feelings always creep up. And those feelings stem from feeling so helpless knowing how much I care and want, but receive either nothing in return or half assed effort. Its so difficult to just say ‘Okay’ and walk away thinking I tried and if the other person didn’t reciprocate, that it’s fine. I find myself always caring too much for someone who seems to not care for me. As much as I say I have forgiven I still cannot fathom not having a relationship with someone who was supposed to raise me, love me, take care of me, and mold me into the person I should be today. Sometimes I wish I could erase the memories because instead of being something I could hold on to all it does is give me pain. I am realizing maybe forgiveness is easy but the pain will take years for it to fully heal. More than 10 years has passed and I can still cry over the lack of a relationship, communication, and love. I want to let go. I’m so tired of having a crack in my heart.

something.

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 23:27:25 -0400

Oh, tumbler how I have missed you. My life has finally calmed down from the strangest and most stressful week of my life. I have begun a new journey alone with a new mode of transportation that has me feeling anxious. In the pit of my stomach, deep in my gut I have these butterflies. It feels like the calm before the storm. The question is whether this storm is going to be bad or good. It shakes me, wakes me up with chills that scares me but excites me. I’m hoping its a storm so grand I can look back at my life and call it a pivotal moment. Its something. This something is coming and I may not be ready for it but I am anticipating its arrival.